I hope you all are fine today. It's 3rd of February, 2024 when I'm writing this blog in my notes. It's my birthday today. I turned 24th this year. Quite amazing, doesn't it?Usually, I never celebrate my birthday. It totally depends on my family and friends, if they want to do anything and I just let them do whatever they want because I know they love me to the core. But, if I talk about myself, I don't like celebrating my birthday at all.
This year I wanted to spend my birthday with my family and the people who are really close to me. I wanted to tell them how they are actually important for me and their efforts meant alot to me and I did so. But as usual, nothing comes easily in my plate, this birthday has made me cry also. I'm an emotional person and as I have stated in one of my previous blog, relations has always hold immense value to me. I don't like when my people cry, beg, feeling alone or do something very self destructive. I'm actually not the person who take revenge, this point is true that I got hurt very easily and then I can't able to process anything on a go but I'm not the person who will betray anyone in their worst either. I begin to feel that I once had some sort of relationship and bond with them and today I have to take care of them for the sake of that bond, no matter how hurted I'm from inside. I won't leave anyone's hand if I truly hold it. Most of you may find this irritating or foolish but this is what I'm. It's a cookie crumble. I can't hide it.
Sometimes, I think why does this thing happen among people? Especially, among those who are really close to each other. It is very strange to think that today you are very far from the person whom you were very connected with. The only question is, why did such a thing happen? They were special, they were dear to us and nothing can actually ruin the bond except lack of clear communication along with respect and loyalty. Even, I'm accepting that at some point of time I was the one who mixed up words while conveying my feelings because I had fear in my mind to loose those people. I hate that type of me. Although, I'm not the same now. I believe in crystal clear words with boisterous feeling.
Straight off the bat, I'm very forthright now. If I like someone's quality, I admit it in front of them and if something triggers me about the same person, I never fail to confront those topics either. I really love to be like that only. I wish, everyone ought to deserve relations, not just a romantic relation but the overall closed people who are not skeptical about conveying any topic or matter. We should surround ourself with the people who are our champions.
Also, it's not that I'm saying, leave those who are not your type. No. A BIG NO. Everyone had their own past experiences and traumas. We should accept and respect their feelings coupled with our dignity. I would never allow someone to treat me bad or descibe my self worth now. I repeat, I'm not just saying about a romantic relationship, we have so many others as well. Like in my case, I have many hats to wear. I can't leave them at any cost but if it comes against my respect then it is quite clear I'll distance myself for sometime. Later on, I would be cordial, not the same as before. Believe me, I'm a kind person. Lol.
Every bond works only by giving equal efforts. It's a figure eight. Mistakes gives misery. Leaving and forgiving them is a most powerful gesture we can ever do. Believe in god. Believe in you. Never fail to land your hand for the help, that's what actually matters.
See you soon.
Toodles.
