How you all have been? It was a really a long break I could have ever taken. I was inactive for blogs because life was not on smooth pace for me. The whole world had turned upside down but I'm here again, nurturing my inner self and trying to confront the mistakes I had done recently. Though, I'll talk about it in later blogs.
This blog is all about me. Like completely, entirely, massively only about me. Haha! No I'm not a narcissist. I just want to express the unfiltered Vaishali which she might not tell anyone openly.
As I'm feeling today about my current life I think I haven't done anything major yet. I'm still finding the definition of life or I can say, I'm creating my own definition, finding the purpose to feel contended and able to hold on relations those are really true towards me. Friendship and relations means alot to me and I invest my feelings on that from my own consent. I know I have given my heart and sweat to make my people happy be it any random day of the year but I did not get any effort from them. It was though an eye opener. I have big fear about choosing the wrong ones. So many faces has already releaved in my life.
Like everyone, I'm scared of taking the wrong choices blowed with emotions and vulnerability. Though, from heart I know you have to dive into grief to be able to handle the extreme pleasure.
For instance, I'm a foodie and I really enjoy having my favorite palate of cuisine. I won't call it as my guilty pleasure because I'm willingly taking it for my satisfaction and pleasure. I don't find anything wrong in this. But if I start taking it in large quantities then it may create a big health problem for me. Likewise, for my fears and vulnerability, I know it's a part of me but it's not my entire been. I am now able to call me emotional and it is really a power of me, I have till date. Sometimes my emotions go on wrong paths. But now I have understood how to bring me on the right path.
So, deep down I know that I have certain emotions and I'm trying to be familiarize with those emotions and accept them as a part of me, a little portion of my entirety. I'm someone who's very sensitive to energies and I can perceive it as well. I catch intentions, grudges and love.
I'm on that side of my life where I can clearly senses people around me who know me since ages and now they betrayed. I'm happy to see such gestures as well. It was after all a reality check for me. The best part is I still have some genuine relations holding onto me so tightly and I'm glad with that. Once my father randomly told me, "You are living in that generation in which you all are afraid to express even when you badly miss somebody".
There has always been a misconception about me that I'm cheesy. I'm telling you, I'm not. I do wish to feel the best of my life but there is another side of me who really aim to confront the battles in it's worst. I feel it builds character and mindset. In short, I want to be a person who is tested by time, who can fight her battles and who is flexible enough to oppose whatever situation is at hand.
That's who I'm and I'm happy and contended to be like this. ❤️✨️
Thank you!
Toodles.
