If you are doing it all alone: It's Serendipity.

I used to be the person who always wanted to have a validation of third person if I want to or I'm going to start something new. I used to be self conscious and self derogatory when it comes to portraying my ability in any task. There was a time, I desperately asked for help to the people whom I consider mine but they were actually not. They were just an another type of snakes sitting in a human soul. I was being rejected several times not only in relationship but in friendships as well despite putting all the efforts and now I'm in a position where I don't want any of them back in my life and the jealousy factor is completely vanished now.

I have understood this clearly that by putting efforts only by one side doesn't make sense at all. We should leave such toxic people and see how much lower they can go. Their bad. Let them go.

Well, it was just a personal thing and I'm not going to dedicate any of blog to the people used me throughout these years. This blog is all about how I found the ability to confront my fear of doing everything alone.

 A couple of weeks back my brother said to me, "You have to face every situation in your life alone, I'm here for you but at the end even I want you to stand tall and face those hardships on your own corner, So after that you can be proud of yourself and at that particular point of time nobody would be happier than me." 

I was not able to decode him in that moment, but now I can understand what actually he was explaining to me. I agree that God has given me alot of challenges but he has also offered a bunch of chances in front of me, in a forms of friendship, love, opportunities, etc. I'm a Chashmish and I'm blind enough to go on wrong paths. Now, I know what is right.

It is pretty clear for me that for some people I was backup or a backup friend. The one who would never be invited on occasions and if invited then only because the priority people couldn't make it. They were back bitiching about me. They were saying mean words like anything only because I was giving them that attention. But now I'm fed up and I really don't want to give a single piece of my heart to such heartless humans and i have realized that I really don't have to force connection and don't try hard to just fit in. I'm done now. I'm happy to see their colors. "No laters for such Alligators"

As of now, I have started working on my positivity, creating my new hobbies and yes piano is definitely in the list. I feel happy to be myself and it was way more easier for me to understand my self worth. 

I could have never imagined myself capturing in a video for my own youtube channel but I did this. This was a milestone, I'm telling you. I'm a camera shy, glossophobic person but I did this bro. Well done Sherni. ❤️🤭

I have started painting again, I'm learning the art of knit, I have my best companion Diksha didi to let me able to understand quelling art and for me study is everything. I'm super interested to educate myself about Reiki. I'm back on track. The 2018's version of Vaishali. I love this time, literally. I have devised myself for the worst to best possible circumstances in my life. What would be more blissfull than this? I'm becoming the protagonist of my own life.

Life goes up and down. It goes side to side. It has peaks and valleys. It has highlights and lowlights. The people who stick around through it all should be kept close.

That's it for now.

I'll catch you all super soon.

Toodles.