A day in a Bloom. 🌸

As a child, I loved being surrounded by flowers whether at my home or at my school campus and this love of mine continued till now. It is like I have some other worldly connection with flowers. I feel very happy, contended and calm when I'm at a garden or at flower mandi. I can say it is in my genes because my father is also a fellow flower aficionado. I saw him arranging flowers at home when I was a kid. He used to have a florist come home and decorate each corner with so much elegance. 

I used to help him since then to now. He is also a plant man but I'm entirely a flower girl who is obsessed with flowers. I have several stories related to flowers, my father used to tell me. We had lived our best time going to a flower mandi and picking the flower according to our mood. He loves marigold, lily and daisy. He thinks these flowers bring purity, innocence and devotion. It's fragrance is totally heavenly. 

I find arranging flowers extremely therapeutic. I like to do it by myself. Mogra is my favorite. Haha! You can call an old school now but yes it's true. I love mogra in any form be it as gajra or to fill in bowls for decoration. It's extremely soothing, welcoming and I have a lot of happy memories. I love roses in all the textures and colors, I'm fond of orchids and I really want to see stargazles because I couldn't find it here. I love to interplay between the color of flowers and shapes of vases. Yellow flowers in white vases look so fascinating. 

There is one anecdote related to my love for flowers, I'm gonna tell you all. So, I was about 5 or 6 year's old when my father forgot to bring me a KitKat and I was extremely irritated by that. He then told me to close my eyes and held me a bouquet of white roses with a letter - I love my doll so much. And at that point of time I was like, "papaaaaaaa you bought this for me" and so on stories like these continues till now. I never get tired of taking photos of flowers. 

There are various other fortuitous incidents that happened to me. This blog will become a big documentary if I'll write all those here and my health is not allowing me to elaborate either. Some of the concise instances are jasmine on car's visor, rose petals on bed, backdrop curtains with white lilies, a shimmer rose wrapped in a letter, a book gifted with a tulip inside, rangoli with so many colorful flowers and so on and so forth. 

My love for flowers are never ending. It's my weakness. Held me a flower and I'll forgive for sharing my food! (I'm a foodie, that's why). Arranging them around my house gives me a sense of calm and create excitement at the same time. 

And the way my home smells after...oof!

So, that's the blog for this week.

I'll catch you all super soon.

Toodles. 

If you are doing it all alone: It's Serendipity.

I used to be the person who always wanted to have a validation of third person if I want to or I'm going to start something new. I used to be self conscious and self derogatory when it comes to portraying my ability in any task. There was a time, I desperately asked for help to the people whom I consider mine but they were actually not. They were just an another type of snakes sitting in a human soul. I was being rejected several times not only in relationship but in friendships as well despite putting all the efforts and now I'm in a position where I don't want any of them back in my life and the jealousy factor is completely vanished now.

I have understood this clearly that by putting efforts only by one side doesn't make sense at all. We should leave such toxic people and see how much lower they can go. Their bad. Let them go.

Well, it was just a personal thing and I'm not going to dedicate any of blog to the people used me throughout these years. This blog is all about how I found the ability to confront my fear of doing everything alone.

 A couple of weeks back my brother said to me, "You have to face every situation in your life alone, I'm here for you but at the end even I want you to stand tall and face those hardships on your own corner, So after that you can be proud of yourself and at that particular point of time nobody would be happier than me." 

I was not able to decode him in that moment, but now I can understand what actually he was explaining to me. I agree that God has given me alot of challenges but he has also offered a bunch of chances in front of me, in a forms of friendship, love, opportunities, etc. I'm a Chashmish and I'm blind enough to go on wrong paths. Now, I know what is right.

It is pretty clear for me that for some people I was backup or a backup friend. The one who would never be invited on occasions and if invited then only because the priority people couldn't make it. They were back bitiching about me. They were saying mean words like anything only because I was giving them that attention. But now I'm fed up and I really don't want to give a single piece of my heart to such heartless humans and i have realized that I really don't have to force connection and don't try hard to just fit in. I'm done now. I'm happy to see their colors. "No laters for such Alligators"

As of now, I have started working on my positivity, creating my new hobbies and yes piano is definitely in the list. I feel happy to be myself and it was way more easier for me to understand my self worth. 

I could have never imagined myself capturing in a video for my own youtube channel but I did this. This was a milestone, I'm telling you. I'm a camera shy, glossophobic person but I did this bro. Well done Sherni. ❤️🤭

I have started painting again, I'm learning the art of knit, I have my best companion Diksha didi to let me able to understand quelling art and for me study is everything. I'm super interested to educate myself about Reiki. I'm back on track. The 2018's version of Vaishali. I love this time, literally. I have devised myself for the worst to best possible circumstances in my life. What would be more blissfull than this? I'm becoming the protagonist of my own life.

Life goes up and down. It goes side to side. It has peaks and valleys. It has highlights and lowlights. The people who stick around through it all should be kept close.

That's it for now.

I'll catch you all super soon.

Toodles.

A Top Tier Compliment: You are lovable. ❤️

Hello everyone,

How you all have been? It was a really a long break I could have ever taken. I was inactive for blogs because life was not on smooth pace for me. The whole world had turned upside down but I'm here again, nurturing my inner self and trying to confront the mistakes I had done recently. Though, I'll talk about it in later blogs.

This blog is all about me. Like completely, entirely, massively only about me. Haha! No I'm not a narcissist. I just want to express the unfiltered Vaishali which she might not tell anyone openly. 

As I'm feeling today about my current life I think I haven't done anything major yet. I'm still finding the definition of life or I can say, I'm creating my own definition, finding the purpose to feel contended and able to hold on relations those are really true towards me. Friendship and relations means alot to me and I invest my feelings on that from my own consent. I know I have given my heart and sweat to make my people happy be it any random day of the year but I did not get any effort from them. It was though an eye opener. I have big fear about choosing the wrong ones. So many faces has already releaved in my life.

Like everyone, I'm scared of taking the wrong choices blowed with emotions and vulnerability. Though, from heart I know you have to dive into grief to be able to handle the extreme pleasure. 

For instance, I'm a foodie and I really enjoy having my favorite palate of cuisine. I won't call it as my guilty pleasure because I'm willingly taking it for my satisfaction and pleasure. I don't find anything wrong in this. But if I start taking it in large quantities then it may create a big health problem for me. Likewise, for my fears and vulnerability, I know it's a part of me but it's not my entire been. I am now able to call me emotional and it is really a power of me, I have till date. Sometimes my emotions go on wrong paths. But now I have understood how to bring me on the right path. 

So, deep down I know that I have certain emotions and I'm trying to be familiarize with those emotions and accept them as a part of me, a little portion of my entirety. I'm someone who's very sensitive to energies and I can perceive it as well. I catch intentions, grudges and love. 

I'm on that side of my life where I can clearly senses people around me who know me since ages and now they betrayed. I'm happy to see such gestures as well. It was after all a reality check for me. The best part is I still have some genuine relations holding onto me so tightly and I'm glad with that. Once my father randomly told me, "You are living in that generation in which you all are afraid to express even when you badly miss somebody".  

There has always been a misconception about me that I'm cheesy. I'm telling you, I'm not. I do wish to feel the best of my life but there is another side of me who really aim to confront the battles in it's worst. I feel it builds character and mindset. In short, I want to be a person who is tested by time, who can fight her battles and who is flexible enough to oppose whatever situation is at hand. 

That's who I'm and I'm happy and contended to be like this. ❤️✨️

Thank you! 

Toodles.